-I really dislike when people make fun of someone for liking something or an interest. It drives me wild and when I was younger I would always be the one to talk back and put the other person down but then as I got older I realized I was no better. So now when I hear someone being judgey I go out of my way to speak to the person with the interest and find out about it. I remember wearing my random band t-shirts, cartoon, or sci fi shirts and my brothers and their friends making fun of me. They always put down my interests and made sure to make me feel bad for liking something that wasn’t what they liked. It hurt that my brothers never defended me and instead encouraged it but thanks to them when someone would comment on my love for Star Wars, Lord of the Rings, or anime it never bothered me. Heard it before and worse so blah. Comic cons were my everything and where I met all like minded people. It was so exciting to see people dressed up in cosplay and I loved meeting new people and making new friends. I am happy I see my many random interests being passed down to my kids. I recently started reading the Chronicles of Narnia with my 6 year old and nothing makes my heart swell more when he comments on it or insists on reading more of it. AHHHH, finally someone appreciates the classics with me. Little does he know I have a whole collection of books for him as well as comic books we will dive in together.
-I also recently started to re listen to the band Cigarettes After Sex again and I have forgotten how much I loved their dreamlike music. They sort of remind me of my beloved Velvet Underground but of course very different. Anyways, they have been on repeat a lot this month. I remember seeing them October 2017 and now sad I missed them here this past October. I hope to catch them again on their next tour.
-Speaking of music did I mention I went this past summer with my oldest and some friends to Lollapoolza? It was so much fun teaching him the ropes! I have been going since I was 18 and again it is so much fun passing down traditions I love to my kids. My oldest loves music just as much as me and it was fun teaching him how to find the good free stuff and randomly walking to stages and discovering new artists. He has already asked to go again next year and I look forward to taking him again.
-I can’t believe we are in November already, how?! I am already planning Santa breakfasts and Christmas fun. I tend to go crazy over these events and hope the kids appreciate my effort.
-Sometimes I hate how I get so obsessed with things, it is annoying how things just fill up my brain with things that are pointless and wish I could let go. It eats at me though and then I think it is ridiculous a thing has consumed me so much. I think this is why I have always been able to let go of people. It is rare when people become my obsession, I think it has only happened twice and it was terrible both times. Thankfully, most people bore me or they are easy to keep in the friend zone or at least my brain doesn’t go nuts for them and I can be “normal”
-It is coming close to winter and that means boring Janet will be coming out. It is weird how the switch happens, I go from going out as much as possible and dragging the boys to all my places that I want to go on a whim to rarely leaving the house. If it weren’t for the kids or holiday events I’d never leave the house. Ever since I moved here I went from never being home to staying home for the winter and I wonder if one day it will seep to the spring, summer, and fall Janet
-I love the cold but hate snow, send help since the snow season has just started here
-My oldest finally is forming a solid friend group and I couldn’t be happier. I hope he has a great group like I did and still do since high school
-My birthday is this month and I dread it. I don’t mind getting older, obviously, age is nothing but a number so getting older doesn’t phase me but I hate the act of actually celebrating. Which is ironic since I make a big deal for the boys’ birthdays. I am more stressed this birthday and of course it is all first world problems so then my guilt comes because why am I complaining?! Younger Janet would have been thrilled to have so many people adore her and want to celebrate her but older Janet is not feeling it
-one of my best friends’ mom recently passed away and of course with all death announcements I never know how to react. Her mom was one of the best and always the life of the party. It was a complete shock since she just retired last year and shows how cruel life can be sometimes that when you are just about to live your golden years destiny has another plan. I am extremely thankful that this one bestie knows me so well and is one of the few people I can be genuine with so when she told us what happened I knew she knew it would take me a bit to respond appropriately. I welcome death and make sure to tell the kids to not mourn me long or at all because I have lived a great life and it is ok to let go. I have seen what grief does to people and I don’t want that for my family but I also understand not everyone sees it like that. Anyways, I texted her my sympathies (I had already done the normal sending flower bouquets and donation) and her reply made me cry, she wrote that she was happy to have seen me that past couple of days because where everyone would show sadness and keep bringing up her mom she knew with me I would act normal and let her relax and enjoy her time. Prior to her mom going we had all bought Blackpink concert tickets and that is why I was in town but of course her mom passing took priority and no one knew if she was going to go but when she thought about it she knew her mom wanted her to go and she knew she could be herself with me and I wouldn’t judge her for letting loose and enjoying her time. I felt so seen since sometimes people tend to interpret my aloofness to not caring when in reality I truly do care I just don’t know what to say or how to act because my social cues are a hot mess so for her to tell me she appreciated me being me meant so much. Here I am suppose to comfort her but her knowing me she says such kind stuff that makes me appreciate her and my friendships so much. It really makes me think how lucky I am to have met these incredible people and thank God everyday to have them in my life.
-I love that the World Cup is going on right now. Today is Mexico vs Poland and sporting events like this make me miss my dad. We always used to watch it on tv or listen to it on the radio, always rooting for Mexico fully knowing they would lose and be eliminated lol. Dan is so cute and wearing his Mexico jersey and as we watch the Denmark vs Tunisia I love that boys are also sitting, eating their breakfast and watching it with us. It melts my cold little heart for the day. Today is pajama day at both schools or else the kids would be wearing their Mexico jerseys too. We root for a lot of countries though so it is too hard to pick a favorite (mine is France, but the other boys have trouble.)
-I am in a slight manic stage so I am posting more, I am not sure how long it will last so I will post as much as I can until I don’t again
Adventures of Janet 