-I know I am not that old but I feel old if that makes sense. The ache in my bones, the tiredness, I hate it. I am showing my oldest all of my favorite things in hopes he remembers and shows his brothers everything I have taught and shown him.
-I really don’t like my family. As I get older I just want to be far away from them but then I panic and fear what if my kids feel the same way about me one day so I still visit and talk to my family even though I don’t want to
-I find it so fascinating living here in MN. One of my favorite things about living here is never getting beeped or catcalled while walking down the street. I absolutely love it and love when I see other women running down our paths in just a sports bra and shorts and no one approaches them or harasses them! It really does leave me shocked and if I think hard enough I may even cry from happiness. I hated getting beeped at in Chicago and guys slowing their car down to say something stupid to me. It started when I was young and even though I was with my brothers it never deterred people until my brothers would shout, swear, and throw rocks at their cars to leave us alone. I never dressed in a way to provoke this harassment and even to this day if I wear a tank top I wear pants, if I wear shorts I wear a t-shirt. I try to balance my outfit because I fear the beeps and the yucky feeling from getting approached. It is sad in a way, to never grow up comfortable in your skin and ashamed for something you could never control. Anyways, in a way I am thankful I have 3 boys to teach them how to treat people with respect and to respect boundaries.
-I recently got the itch to go to concerts again and it has been so much fun! I drive Dan crazy with always wanting to go to a new concert but he always surprises me with tickets. We recently went to the Lauv concert in Minneapolis and it was AMAZING!! Dan and I have mutually interests in music but mine is way more eclectic so I am always happy when he tags along and actually enjoys himself. I even caught him swaying to the music which is huge! We had a great time and I was happy to check out a new music venue-The Armory.
-Since I started to write this I also went to see Alexander 23 at the Amsterdam Pub & Hall in St Paul and OMGGGG he was amazing!! I even got to meet him and he was so kind and down to Earth. When I was younger I used to love to get the set lists and wait for the artists to sign it and talk to them briefly. It was always a nice treat when they met us fans and chatted, but Alexander was something else and just so sweet. I love that Dan also likes him so we had so much fun at the concert and still on a high from meeting him.
-On the music note, I am really enjoying listening to Kid Cudi’s new album A Kid Named Cudi. I remember listening to his 2009 album Man on the Moon-The End of Day and it really impacted me. I loved that album and his following works and this new album is just as amazing as his past ones. I am sad he isn’t coming to MN but he is coming to Chicago and wish I could go see him.
-My oldest always is in awe how much different music I know and love. We have this game now where I will send him emojis to describe a song and if he gets it, he gets to send me a song in return to guess and we go on and on taking turns. We also send each other the links of the song after it is guessed so we must listen to it and find the lyric that was described in emojis, it’s fun and something we do daily. I love expanding his music horizons and really enjoy the new stuff he sends me. I like connecting with him on that level because there is just something about music and art that bonds people.
-I have recently noticed my insane addiction (besides candy) I have for sunglasses and cheesy purses. I own some designer stuff but nothing makes my heart flutter more than cheap daisy print sunglasses with a bright rainbow purse that didn’t cost more than $15. I always fear ruining my nice stuff and then I don’t use it because my mind is preoccupied with babying my stuff when I shouldn’t and just enjoy taking it out. I love cute prints and designs for every holiday and occasion but it is getting a tad out of control. My love for toys and Star Wars collectibles can be excused because my kids play with that stuff but they don’t use my bags and other random accessories, it is a rare time I wish I had a girl so I can justify my addiction by saying I will just give them to her.
-I can’t imagine living in a place with no season that is Autumn. It is my favorite season, is it weird to think how beautiful the trees turn when they are shedding their leaves for the year. Almost like beauty in death which sounds sick but I can’t think of another way to say it. It always inspires me to paint, same as Spring and when I see the beauty in things being reborn. I find Summer and Winter to be too much lolol so I just dread both seasons always.
-My other “random thoughts” posts can be found here 1, 2, 3,4.
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