Random Thoughts #3

  1. Sometimes I feel bad lying to my kid about things like Santa and the Tooth Fairy. Thank goodness he realized the whole Santa thing on his own at 4 years old because I didn’t like giving credit to some unknown person for the gifts I thoughtfully picked out and thought of him. I do say we give presents and gifts in honor of the original St Nicholas and keep his spirit alive so we also celebrate St Nick Day December 6, but now he has lost a tooth. Dan says I should be quiet about the tooth fairy but I don’t like this, I never got money for my teeth and I later realized it was because my parents didn’t have money to give and while at first I was sad when I realized later in life that the Tooth Fairy wasn’t even real I didn’t harbor any resentment towards my parents nor did I feel sad the Tooth Fairy wasn’t real. For Christmas only 1 kid got a special big present and the rest of us got a little gift and I can’t even remember if it was from Santa but maybe because I had way older brothers I think they told me pretty young Santa wasn’t real so I knew my parents bought us everything and we never argued who got chosen for the big gift because I knew my mom would make it up to us throughout the year differently. Anyways, the Tooth Fairy has arrived and it gave my son $1 and a toy!!! He woke up so excited and while it was cute I could see my oldest question why did brother get a toy when he only got money. Ughh, then comes the dreaded well, “I am going to tell him the Tooth Fairy isn’t real” and while it is nice to keep the magic alive I am sure my middle will hear it from someone at school. Ahhh dang made up things, why or who invented them?
  2. As I get older I really understand my dad a lot more and miss him. I think of him often and laugh hysterically out loud thinking of his sayings or what he would think of certain scenarios. I hope to visit his grave when I visit soon and say sorry for not getting him more when we were so alike. My mom always says I look exactly like her but act exactly like my dad and when I was younger I took big offense because I despised him but I get it now and don’t mind the comparison so much
  3. I’m heading to my brother’s wedding in a few days and I have no idea what to expect. I feel like I’m walking into the lion’s den but I am happy that my other 2 brothers are equally lost and confused what to do and what is expected. I find it so odd that even though the 3 of them live in the same city how if blood didn’t tie them together they wouldn’t be in each other’s lives. Somehow, I call and speak to them weekly so I always know what’s going on but I don’t know if I would if I didn’t have kids. I’m not close with my brothers because they are so much older and were never home when I was growing up. I was like the only child and rarely saw them in grade school, high school, and definitely not in college but these 3 are only a year apart, how can they be so distant? This wedding should be really interesting and I am here to listen to my mom talking smack about everyone lolol. Don’t worry, only the grandkids are exempted from her bashing so I am just waiting to hear what she will say about me. I think in that way, in a sense, we are very alike, she is very open and honest and if she doesn’t like you she will just say it. It is nice not having to guess what she is thinking and what she feels. Anyways, I am sure my brother and his fiancee have said a lot of negative things about me because I am not bringing my whole family in so I can only imagine what her family thinks of me. I will be sure to put on my best performance and make my mom proud that I can be so civil and sweet lololol
  4. Recently, one of my MOMS Club members had a baby and she took my baby name! We hung out a week before and we all asked her what she was naming her child and she was lost except for the middle name so we all gave her our baby names. I am not too upset about it though because I am not having any more kids and it is my fault for sharing, but dang after she said she didn’t like my name she took it! Oh well, if I had another boy I would still name them my baby name because it goes well with my other boys’ name and it is one I still love and adore.
  5. As winter comes I am starting to panic about the snow, I love the cold weather but hate snow and the bad driving conditions it brings. I grew up taking the bus and train everywhere so I am not trained to drive in the snow or ice. I hope it holds off for awhile and winter just brings the bitter cold. Nothing beats waiting for the train/bus on a cold early morning and the lakefront chill hits your bones in Chicago so whenever I am standing outside in MN for awhile I just always think about how much colder the wind was in Chicago and remember it could be colder.
  6. I am so so so so excited to see my friends in a couple of days. Three of them had babies and I cannot wait to meet them, cuddle up on them, and smother them with Auntie Janet love. I will be sure to be taking lots of pictures with them and happy Dylan will be with me for this special moment. AHHHHH!!!

Published by Janet

Hello from MN! I’m in my mid 30s and enjoying life with my family and friends 😃

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