One week

It’s been 1 week since I gave birth and man has it been magical. This baby has been so different than my other two and it is hard to articulate how happy I am right now.

With my oldest, I was 22, terrified. A single mom and if it wasn’t for my family’s support I don’t know where I’d be right now. I also had my friends and the comfort of everything I was already used to so it didn’t seem that hard. A little scary for the unknown and what was to come but nothing I couldn’t handle.

My second, I was in a new city, married, and without friends or family. Thank goodness my mom flew up for a couple of weeks but once she left I was again scared and lonely. I had post partum depression and it felt like I would never be the same again. This baby had colic and would just eat and cry, eat and cry. With that though and only having my husband and my then 8 year old I was able to find myself slowly. My oldest made me a mom and my second made me a better mom. He taught me so much patience and to go out and explore the world. Since I wasn’t myself it took a lot to even go out and thankfully with my husband’s encouragement and company I started going to library story time and eventually heard about ECFE, an early childhood program that is beyond amazing, and found me again. I have made lots of new friends thanks to my middle child and for that I will forever be grateful.

My third baby has made me beyond happy. Maybe because I’m older and I am sure of myself and 35 isn’t so young anymore so this will be my last baby and knowing all of that I appreciate and am enjoying every second with my little baby.

We have been super lucky so far and he eats and sleeps. We do tummy time and fun little activities that his brothers love doing with him like stretching and singing songs and going outside but he is mostly calm and deals with all the crazy his older brothers bring.

Time is definitely a thief and while the days are long the years are too short. This pandemic has been crazy but I’m also happy I get extra time with my boys without the hustle and bustle of school and after school activities and just talking and creating with them.